anti-love

What word is there that means sorrow?
What word is there that means regret, and confusion?
What word is there that takes this life,
and condenses it all into meaning,
when there is none,
when there is no language,
that can express this moment,
this feeling, this responsibilty
this useless waiting and remembering?
What could I give you, as your sister?
I am no mother, lover either, not to you.
If I had a wish - it would be for you to understand,
your body and your mind.
To love what they can give you.
Not fear the choices opened up,
as we grow older.
Trying to keep things the same,
will destroy you brother.
Happy Valentines.
May you find love.
May I find love.
May we leave the anti-lovers well behind.